Subtle Mind

I have to be honest, I could compare the two Loving Kindness and the Subtle mind exercise in the beginning as soothing and relaxing.  However, at first I thought it was the component in which I was listening to but then changed to another one; just to realize that the static was apart of this exercise.  In the beginning I was relaxed and concentrating on my breathing, it was peaceful and quite.  Than I got startled when I heard the static, my heart starting pounding and I felt that I was out of sort.  I could not get myself together and found it to be rather annoying and loud.  I could not find myself relaxing, honestly I could not focus while this static was going on.  I even jumped and become a little nervous!

I have to be honest, I could not find any wellness at all because of the static, I feel that it was so distracting that I could not continue to engage in finding my relaxation point and found it to be unnerving.  However, I guess this was the focal point, learning how to focus on breathing and mentally moving those distracting things away from your thoughts.  Something likes this has always manifested in my life and I guess its like that because I have allowed the distraction to be so much larger than what it really is.  Many times, its just that a distraction and I have to learn how to put it out of my mind and out of my sight and focus on whats at hand.  I believe that I can utilize this type of exercise to increase my physical endurance.  Concentrating on breathing and allowing that to be the focus and large part of what I do instead of allowing fear to paralyze me.
After writing this and realizing, this exercise was beneficial after all because I realize that I need to have more strength in my concentration level than in my distraction level.

Ann