This weeks exercise has allowed me to sit quietly and focus on what has transpired in the past week. While I have loving-kindness for my family this exercise is asking to go beyond that. When I try to focus on extending loving-kindness to others I feel that its something that would need to be reciprocated. I feel this way because while our generosity can be contagious we never know if its a good or bad thing towards others. This week while extending loving-kindness; my way of doing this, was focusing on the subtle mind and just passing over things that could be disruptive. As a matter of fact, this week was quite intense and it was definitely a good way to complete this type of exercise. But I wonder, can loving kindness be extended to those who do not have or find love and kindness in their heart? Can what I do be contagious and it be adapted by others?
In completing the Integral Assessment, I was able to focus more on what it is that I need to work more on. In this aspect I feel that I need to develop more in the Interpersonal phase, this is the most difficult for me. While many people I come in contact with feel that I am a people person; I feel that I am far from it. Being around people all day simply makes me want to spend more time by myself so that I can regroup and grow within myself. Many times I set up my guard because I don't want to socialize, I don't want to meet new people and I don't want to engage in what people have to say. However, I am working on this and I am beginning to engage in socializing more often.
The area in my life that is ready for growth and development is Biological. I feel that I do really well in this area in my life and am improving more and more everyday. I enjoy evolving in my nutrition and exercise and feel that I am getting stronger and more knowledgeable everyday. I am excited to travel the road in this area of my life and look forward to where it will lead me.
As of right now I would like to foster more meditation in my life. This could be in the form of prayer, yogi, or diaphragmatic breathing. This would help me to get through tough times and help me to handle situations that I have no control over even better. It will enable me to become more engaged in self control.
Ann
Hi Ann, you give some great insight into your world. I think both exercises are great to incorporate in a daily routine. I understand your feelings about being sociable and it can be frustrating being around people that talk all of the time. However, I have learned some of my greatest lessons through socializing. It produces growth and enlightenment. You will need to determine the need and purpose for the type of people you socialize with, once that's in perspective then take only what you need from conversations and actions. Some people take and others give.... Find the balance because if you are always receiving, and not giving, you are not making room for the new stuff. I think most of us are introverts to some point, but there's a diverse world to explore which means that your encounters with people will be different. I wish you well with your goals.
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ReplyDeleteThank you for your post. I am working on my social skills. I do have them but at times it is a matter of preference and therefore I choose not to socialize. I am getting better and I have started with my place of employment. By giving and receiving it has helped create a good working environment and it's getting better each day.
Ann
Good job on your blog! I think it is very normal to want "me" time when you have spent all day surrounded by people! We all need that time as well. That does not mean you do not care about others, just need some time to yourself! Balance is definitely the key!
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